Goddamn feelings.

So hey guys. Feeling kind of depressed here so I'm not going to be very perky in this post.

I'm usually not emotional. Right? I usually only do dramatic writing, and everytime I do, I kind of laugh at myself for being so dramatic. I don't really feel those emotions, I just feel like I'm the vessel that has to write these thoughts down. They come from the dramatic part of my mind, the one that flinches at scary movies or dreams weird dreams. I don't know it. It's not really "me."

But lately I've been getting really weepy (Don't worry, I'm not being hit by puberty for the first time. Jeesh.) But I'm weird now. Like, weird emotionwise. Otherwise, I was already there. I've been feeling weepy whenever my parents try to talk to me about serious career choices, about my passion, and basically whenever we talk about serious issues in my life. I start crying and getting all goddamn weepy and I hate myself for doing it. I feel like such a goddamn douche for crying, and I really shouldn't, but my goddamn tear ducts have decided they're freaking Niagra Falls, and I'm a chick flick that's on repeat. I goddamn hate myself so much because 5 minutes later I'm fine, but now my day has been struck by a fun thunderstorm of emotions that leaves my weepy and weak and I hate it because I don't like being that way.

I have so much in my life to be thankful for it's crazy. Sometimes I wake up and think, "Wow. This is a dream. This is, it's just, wow. Thank you universe." You know? But instead what does FeatherPaw do? Goes and goddamn weeps in a corner. Retard. Is something offbeat here, or is it just me?

Thanks universe, for everything in my life, but these weepy weepies need to stop because I am hating the way things are turning out for me. I was supposed to grow up and stop crying, not grow up and realize I cry even more. No.

Thanks for bearing with this post if you read it.
(Oh hey she finally posted lame-o didn't post for two months and finally she's back with emotional ish like come on man noone reads your blog.
SIGH I'm so weird.)

Have some fun times unlike me and my emotions.

FeatherPaw.